Timing

Alright, so apparently there's this study that's done to kids whenever they're little.

"Stanford University psychology researcher Michael Mischel demonstrated how important self-discipline (the ability to delay immediate gratifiction in exchange for long term goal achievement) is to lifelong success? In a longitudinal study which began in the 1960s, he offered hungry 4-year-olds a marshmallow, but told them that if they could wait for the experimenter to return after running an errand, they could have two marshmallows.

Those who could wait the fifteen or twenty minutes for the experimenter to return would be demonstrating the ability to delay gratification and control impulse. About one-third of of the children grabbed the single marshmallow right away while some waited a little longer, and about one-third were able to wait 15 or 20 minutes for the researcher to return.

Years later when the children graduated from high school, the differences between the two groups were dramatic: the resisters were more positive, self-motivating, persistent in the face of difficulties, and able to delay gratification in pursuit of their goals. They had the habits of successful people which resulted in more successful marriages, higher incomes, greater career satisfaction, better health, and more fulfilling lives than most of the population.

Those having grabbed the marshmallow were more troubled, stubborn and indecisive, mistrustful, less self-confident, and still could not put off gratification. They had trouble subordinating immediate impulses to achieve long-range goals. When it was time to study for the big test, they tended to get distracted into doing activities that brought instant gratifciation This impulse followed them throughout their lives and resulted in unsuccessful marriages, low job satisfaction and income, bad health, and frustrating lives."

http://www.sybervision.com/Discipline/marshmallow.htm

I'm pretty sure that I would have been the on that waited for the second marshmallow, but I would have been eying that first one, and tried to figure out how I could get it.
Well, I've kinda come to a decision about a big part in who I am.
Much like the Marshmallow study, God and the Devil are standing in front of me. The Devil is holding a dessert that looks soo good! I can smell it and I'm standing 5 feet away from it. God doesn't have anything in his hands, but he says that if I just wait on His timing, then He would give me a dessert so wonderful, that I can't even imagine how good it's going to be!

So all of that to say,
I've decided that I am not going to try to find the right guys for me. Why should I look in vain for guy that I think is the one, whenever God already has one for me.

I just have to wait on his timing for me.