It’s nice to go back and read all the blog posts and journal entries from the last year. I feel as if I’ve failed myself yet again! Every year I say that I’m gonna get back into a healthy habit of reading my Bible and spending time with God, but a year has passed and I don’t feel any closer than I did last year! Why do I find it so hard to do that?
This past year was good! I enjoyed it a lot more than 2009, but it wasn’t want I thought it was going to be. I had made choices that I didn’t check with God on, and whenever that happens…things don’t go the way that you had planned. I’m thankful for the place that I’m at right now, because I feel like there is nothing holding me back. Things have been feeling very…bleh lately. Like I’m just going about everything because I have to and I’m choosing to not have the best attitude I can when going about my normal routine. I’m tired of it! Things seriously need to change!
I need to just start surrounding myself with God! Anything and everything I can get my hands on! I need to be soo lost in God that I don’t even know who I am anymore because it doesn’t matter! I want to be that person that you see and know that they’re on fire for God! Everything in their life says that it’s about Him, not them. And not that people can tell that there’s something different because you don’t curse or party all the time or have an ok outlook on life and how it should be lived. I want to be the person that, you know what they’re about! …Yeah!
~Dana
